Argh Fluck it.....

You know when you wake up in a seemingly good mood. Ready to face the day with what ever it's going to throw at you. In those moments of opening your eyes, you decide that today nothing will get you down. Today will be a great day.

It can all come crumbling down within a few seconds..........

Just one person's foul mood and slamming of doors and cursing can kind of fluck your day up.

Thanks a lot.

Now all I want to do is really sit in a corner and sob.

I so needed to be in a good place today.

6 Years....

I have been the luckiest person in the entire world, because for the last 6 years I have been the mother of this gorgeous child.....



My dearest McKenna

No words will ever be enough to explain how much mommy loves you. Every day I'm blessed to have you in my life. Every day I learn more patience and more love.

You have been such a brave girl the last few months. Mommy is so proud of how you have handled change. You have adapted so well. But I knew you would, because that is who you are. You are smart and mature, and you will do anything to make sure mommy is smiling.

So thank you my precious little girl for making life so easy.

I'm sorry it's raining though, but as you said in the car to school this morning: "No matter what the weather does mommy, I'm going to have a great day because I'm 6!"

Happy birthday my darling McK.

The cat is out of the bag......

Keeping secrets, especially exciting over the moon happy secrets are hard.... Our company launch, was not a company launch...

Only this lady thought it was a company launch, the rest of us had been playing along....



We went to this awesome place: Ritrovo



To give a certain special lady a gorgeous ring and a promise....



A huge congratulations to my brother and his bride to be :)



Now the fun begins....

I need to do two things....

The only problem is that the two things are most likely impossible to achieve .....

1) To get rid of someone. I need them to take a walk to the end of the earth and jump.

2) Win the Lotto (Cause then I wouldn't give a fluck about that person jumping off the face of the earth).

I've been instructed to go to my happy place today, so let me rather do that........

We have a big weekend ahead. Between company launches and a certain gorgeous girlie turning six, it's jammed packed.

I still need to find something to wear for the company launch. It's depressing.

B was easy, I sent him an sms "make sure maid irons your white collar shirt". Me, not so easy. I borrowed a fancy shirt from a friend, and to quote a phrase I read on Harassed Mom's Blog I look like a whale in a condom. Depressing with a capital D.

Hope you all have a great weekend.

Goats and stuff

Baby goats to be exact. I had a dream that B and I had two baby goats. I can't tell you what they looked like though, I just remember walking them down a garden path, luring them with their milk bottles. Very weird. I didn't want to touch the milk though because it was Goats breast milk. hahaha, and most of you will know my issues with breast milk. ;-)

McK had her check up at the dermatologist yesterday. Still "stress eczema". We are all hoping she out grows it soon. Yeah that is what doc said last year too. But oh well, he is the one that has studied for years and years and years. I'm sure he knows what he is talking about.

Just four more sleepies until my baby turns six! This is the first year since she has been born that there isn't a big grand party for her. No fancy invites, no jumping castles, no gorgeous cake. I feel bad, but it's just not possible this year. I'll still make a big deal about the class party, but we just can't do big party. Argh, I hate it. But I'll make up for it some how.

Ok, I've officially been sitting here staring at this screen for 7 minutes now. Tick tock, haven't a clue what to write. So why don't you rather go read my interview over at Female2Female, and make sure you check out the rest of the awesome website too!

Owl City Vanilla Twilight

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

I just sat and watched....

The rain was softly hitting against the window pane as I sat under a cozy blanket and watched the scene unfold in front of me. Two personals bubbles about to become one.



She walked right up to him, put her nose against his and giggled after trying to stare him out for a good three minutes. He giggled back, and the next thing I knew they were pretty much rolling on the floor laughing and spinning around in the office chair.

Such a beautiful sight, seeing this "independent bachelor for life" joking around with the most precious thing in my life. It's breath taking to see the two people I love so much find a connection and laugh at each other. Smile.

To see McK grow on B over the last few months. To see B grow on McK over the last few months. It was always important to me that he understood that. Now it all comes naturally. More heart pumping moments to come.

B has taught me to be more patient with McK. I've listened and taken notes. It's hard when someone points out something you don't see as that obvious. But I guess when you are wrapped up in your own ways of doing things, you can get lost. Some times I say things that are mean, which I necessarily don't think is nasty or I assume that it won't hurt McK, that she will know I'm just teasing. I've dropped some of my attempted "military style" mothering techniques and it has made a big difference in both our stress levels. (Our being McK and I).

Two separate bubbles becoming one for a few minutes at a time.