August Decisions

Hey bloggers/readers.

Grin..... Yeah I'm giving a half @ss attempt at blogging today.

August has been a whirlwind of fun and drama.

I made the decision to send McK to a child play therapist. I had the first session with the therapist last Friday. It was really hectic. I cried most of the hour while she asked about McK and her Father, and all the issues that come with it. But I'm very glad I did it. She will start seeing McK this week.

Why is McK going you may ask???? Well since her father just packed up his things and fled to the coast a few weeks back, after not even making any attempt to say good bye to her..... I had to be the bearer of bad news and explain to McK that she isn't going to see her daddy any time soon. She took the news rather badly.....

Since then she has been very clingy and emotional. I think this last year has finally hit hard on her and she is dealing with some issues that I have no idea on how to handle. I'm so p*ssed off with C, that I'm not taking her feelings into consideration when trying to explain the situation to her.

I know this is the best thing for McK. When I told her on Friday night that she is going to go see a special lady that is going to help her not be so sad anymore, the poor child burst into tears. But it was tears of relief. I can't explain it to you. I explained to her that she can talk to this lady about anything that is making her angry or sad. And that we are going to try and help her heart feel better. She is very excited.

I can't wait to have my giggly dancing girlie back again.

On the B side of life. Still wonderful. Yeah I don't know when the "honeymoon" period is supposed to end, but I'm still enjoying it. All is good. All is love. All is happiness.

Long time no star sign...

Usually these days I don't have time for star signs but this one caught my eye this morning on the way to work:

Life is good. Really good. And while you'd like to say it's been all your own doing, you know better. Now march yourself over to the person responsible for that sappy grin and think of a creative way to say thank you. You'll think of something ....

Hmmmm creative way, GRIN, oh I could think of many but I couldn't possibly type them out here since my father might just read my blog today.

*BLUSHES*

I don't believe it? Seriously. Who would have thought I would be the one to go MIA in the blogsphere. I just figured maybe you were all getting bored with stories of happiness and love and me gushing over Mr. B all the time. You know that same old same old kind of stuff.

I could tell you all about the drama that I have had to endure the last 2 weeks, but is it really reading material that I want to share. Hmmmm, maybe not. I haven't even told McK yet, so maybe it isn't fair that I share it with the internet. I'm only planning on telling her next week when things have calmed down and final. Lets just say that a certain piece of rubbish is finally out of our lives.

I think I've settled into the working schedule. Still hating the getting up early bit though. Don't think I will ever get used to it to be honest. I have (and will) always love my sleep. It's the one thing, (ok not the one thing, he finds me over all very amazing) that amazed B, the amount of time I can spend sleeping. Bliss.

Yeah I'm still sickeningly in love with B. (and I'm starting to think he is more sickeningly in love with me) LOL. I still don't know how I got so lucky.

B is taking McK shopping on Sunday. I don't quite think he knows what he is letting himself in for. But I have warned her to be on her best behaviour. Yes, this gorgeous face can get demonic at the best of times.



Oh wait, do you hear that? It's a soft whisper, a seductive whisper.... a maybe it's better lying in a warm bubble bath than sitting in front of the PC whisper... Best I heed it's call.

I promise not to leave you for so long again.

xox

When we are older....

He promises that he will let me sleep in, while he takes my teeth to the bathroom to be brushed..... sweet hey....

Love that man

xox

I some times just sit and wonder.

How did I get to this place where I am now. When did I get direction?

When did I grow a pair of balls and take on the world. (Well not the whole world, but a good part of it).

It’s been 10 months since I made my life altering decision.

I will never forget the day after, how I cried non stop. How I almost chickened out. How no one thought I was strong enough to follow through.

Where would I have been today if I did chicken out?

It’s been almost 8 months since B has stepped into my life. A shining knight on his white horse, he came to rescue me from myself. Made me stronger, made me smile, and made me feel love and trust and all those wonderful things that come from having a relationship.

A real relationship.

One with a future.

One with trust.

When did it become ok to lie for hours on end next to someone and not say a word but yet feel so in touch and feel as if you had actually been talking non stop for those hours. Content.

I have a lot of when’s and how’s and what if’s.

Yet I’m still trying to live without thinking about them, and just be content….. and in love….

I know I know

I promised, I failed.....

My most humble apologies.....

Will try again by Wednesday.

I can leave you though with the fact that I'm totally and utterly in love with a certain person and can not believe how lucky and blessed I am to have him in my life.

xox

Reduced to.....

Yes, my internet usage is pretty much reduced to Face Book status updates lately. I'm so sorry for leaving things hanging.

I'm still busy as ever. Juggling between working, mommy and girlfriend duties. It's hard and tiring, and worst of all I'm woman down with serious flu!!!

I'm going to promise a full update by the weekend......... (promise)

And while I'm composing my big update, don't you want to go VOTE FOR MCKENNA please :)